Inflammation is NOT my friend

Wow, I cannot believe how long it has been since I've written a post! I am SO sorry! I've been crazy busy this past week nursing my poor hip/knee, which has appeared to have gotten worse, as well as studying for my RD exam. It's been really tough not being able to workout the way I am used to, especially because running is not about burning calories for me anymore. It's become something I look forward to every  morning when I wake up. It's become a way for me to think, pray, and relieve my stress before the day begins. Which is why I am determined to have this pain figured out! I have not run for 3 weeks now, and it is really starting to get on my nerves! I went to the doctor this week, who ordered x-rays, and a possible MRI if the x-rays come out clean. Since I'm pretty sure I have no broken bones, I'm hoping the MRI will be the next step to make sure I haven't torn any muscles or ligaments. I'm certain this pain is inflammatory and is caused by overuse, and possibly the need for new running shoes (which I wish were cheaper)!

In the meantime, I've been trying to do as much as I can to alleviate the stress on my hip and knee, while still working out and maintaining my endurance and active lifestyle. For example, this morning, I did 3 miles on the elliptical, with no incline and minimal resistance (between 1-3)...

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Even though I definitely don't get the endorphins I am used to on the elliptical, I am trying to be positive and focus on the fact that I can still do SOMETHING to move my legs and stay active! After my workouts, I typically come home and ice my hip and knee while having a light snack...check out these jumpo grapes from a few days ago!

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I've also been dabbling in a "paleo" type of lifestyle this week, since these foods are anti-inflammatory, and I'm hoping they may help my pain! I haven't been too strict on this, and might see better results if I am more strict; but for now, I am trying to focus on being grain and dairy free, icing my hip and knee, and stretching as much as possible.

Today, I had a lovely sausage and veggie omelet for lunch, and got a surprise double-yolk from one of my eggs! These grain and dairy free meals have been helping me in the staying-full and having-energy department, so I am very much hoping they will help my pain as well!

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I'm hoping to be back and running again very soon. My plan is to wait on my doctor for the results of my x-ray, and for a possible MRI. I am also going to continue my elliptical regimen with icing and stretching afterwards. I am going to try my best to stay grain and dairy free for a short while to see if that impacts my pain. I am also going to check out a running store soon to see if I need new or different shoes. Hopefully these things will help me heal soon, as I am SO ready to get back to my running!

I hope you all are having a fantastic Thursday and I hope to be writing again soon! :)

Hips Don't Lie...Unfortunately

So this morning's workout was not that great :( I have been nursing a sore hip/knee for a few days now, but have been able to run through it. Yesterday, I was not very good about icing my knee and hip, so when I ran this morning, I was only about to run 2 miles. I usually push through pain, which can be a good and bad thing. About a year and a half ago, I had the same kind of hip pain I am experiencing now, except I ran through it for 2 weeks until one morning, I couldn't get out of bed because of the pain. The doctors told me that it was an overuse injury and rest would be the only thing that would heal it. I ended up having to take an entire week off of working out...not only running, but even things like the elliptical or power-walking. It was so hard for me because I look forward to my workouts every day and love working myself hard! Which is why this morning was so disappointing for me. I have a hard time with anything that prevents me from running the distances I want to, or with the intensity I want to. But I am holding on to the fact that resting now will mean better success later, especially because my dad and I signed up for a half marathon last night! The marathon is in about 5 weeks (on November 17th!)...or in about 37 days to be exact haha :)

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...so I definitely want to make sure I am healed up and at my best for that day! This will be my 5th half-marathon ever, and I am so excited for it!

So for now, I am icing my knee more regularly, scaling back on my running, and trusting in the process of resting and letting my body heal. I also think God is SO great for bringing this verse to me this morning in not only one devotional, but TWO that I read this morning! God is so good and provides exactly what we need at the right times!

"Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest."Matthew 11:28

I hope you all have a wonderful day everybody!

Fall Leaves, New Thoughts, and my Daily Manna: 10/8/13

Wow! I can't believe how long it's been since I've written a post! Last time I wrote I'm pretty sure it was still summer weather and now the leaves are finally changing! I absolutely love the fall season and am so excited it is finally October! These past couple of weeks have been a little crazy, but I'm finally trying to have some kind of routine back! My workouts have still been on point, which I am so glad about! I have been keeping up with my runs even though my toning efforts went a little downhill last week. But I've been better this week so far!

Before I get into what my day looked like today, I wanted to update you all on my gluten/grain free adventures! I wrote a post about a month ago about my history and adventures with gluten and grain-free eating. While I have been eating this way about 80-90% of the time, I have decided to give myself a little more freedom when it comes to these food choices! I naturally lean towards gluten and grain free foods in my everyday dietary choices; however I also do not want to severely restrict myself because, as I have stated before, I am a bread/tortilla/cereal LOVER and the more I tell myself to not have these things, the more I want them! I have been spacing out my gluten/grains if I decide to have them to make sure to prevent any stomach upset that may occur if I overflow my system! Above all else, I am making healthy nutrient-dense choices that work for MY body and am always listening to my body in the process, as well as my mind! With that being said (one last thing I promise! Then on to my day...) I have also been intrigued lately with the iifym lifestyle or "if it fits your macros." Even though it requires calorie counting, it encourages nutrient dense choices while allowing for some flexibility as long as it fits into your daily "macros" which are carbohydrates, protein, and fat. Even though I have yet to fully commit to this idea, I have been researching and looking into it! From what I have read, it seems to really help people who are severe perfectionists and rule followers with their food (ahem...guilty!) and allows them to develop a more balanced approach to healthy eating!! I will probably post more on this topic later on as I research it more...but! Without further ado... my day!

I woke up pretty early this morning around 5:30am and did my quiet time. I've been reading through the Bible and have been doing a Daniel and John Bible Study workbook (two separate ones!) which have both been phenomenal! After my quiet time, I got ready for the gym and ate an egg with a small handful of nuts as my pre-workout meal!

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This meal gave me GREAT energy! I was able to comfortably do a 5 mile run, but didn't push myself further because I knew I wanted to do the toning segment of my "Frisky Fall" workout routine made by "Tone it Up" trainers Karena and Katrina! Check out their website for more awesome workouts!

http://www.toneitup.com

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After my run + toning session, I was drenched and STARVING! I decided to make some paleo pancakes with the remainder of my coconut flour. However, I had some flipping issues, but still managed to make the pancakes look pretty in my heart plate! Belle and the Beast are under all that pancake goodness. But! Don't judge these pancakes by their cover, they tasted GREAT! I am waiting on a shipment of some almond flour to arrive, which is when I plan on experimenting a bit with these two flours and finding a recipe that works!

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After breakfast, I got ready for my day and headed to the park near my house to study for my RD exam. It's been really hard being able to focus at home because of so many distractions! However, the park was perfect today and the weather was just right! I was able to get a few really good hours in which made me feel very productive.

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I had packed a salad to eat at the park, but decided to go home instead and eat while relaxing for a bit before an appointment I had!

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This salad had spinach, tomatoes, carrots, snap peas, and a cut up string cheese. I also made my own dressing with lemon juice, olive oil, mint, garlic, and a bit of salt. I don't really measure out this dressing and usually eyeball the ingredients, but maybe one day I can standardize this recipe and share it with you all. The salad tasted great and was a perfectly light meal!

After lunch I decided to relax a bit before my dentist appointment at 2:30! As usual, the appointment took a while, and with the usual traffic I didn't get home until about 4:15. I was meeting my friends for dinner at 5, which I wasn't even feeling hungry for! I was surprised at how full my lunch kept me! But at 5pm, my friends and I went to Tender Greens which is a really yummy salad place! I usually always get the Mediterranean Spinach Salad which is DELICIOUS but decided to try something new and get the Chipotle BBQ Chicken salad, which was also very yummy!

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This salad had such a light cilantro dressing too, which made it so refreshing yet filling! After dinner I headed to Bible Study and had a great time with some amazing women! We watched the video component to the Daniel Bible study we are doing and learned about how important being humble is and how clothing ourselves with humility is an intentional action that we need to do daily! I will definitely be trying to apply this to my daily life and always keep asking God to humble me and remove my pride!

Well, that's it for my day! It was a great one and I honestly loved all the yummy greens I ate today! Tomorrow is supposed to rain which I am so excited about! Looking forward to a cozy day! Have a great night everyone!

Take My Thoughts Captive

Lately, I have been trying to be more intentional about my thoughts. My thought life is very jumpy and inconsistent. I tend to have full-faith about things one moment, then be crippled with anxiety and worry the next. I turn to the Lord during these times, but it is very difficult to keep my eyes and mind fixed on God when there are constant distractions and problems coming my way. Anyone else? I feel like life is always going to throw us waves, and I would love to just swim in the storms that come at me knowing the Lord is with me even in the turmoil. I think having this type of peace starts with have captive thoughts. I use this phrase a lot and it is often a staple in my prayers during times of worry, anxiety, or feelings of defeat. This concept of "captive thoughts" was first brought to my attention while reading 2 Corinthians 10. Verses 3-5 jumped out at me:

"For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does. The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ."

I've memorized this verse because it has become a constant companion for me in times of distress. I love the promise that God equips us with weapons to demolish our strongholds. Strongholds are anything that take us "captive" and consume us whether it is work, school, family, striving for good health, worry, anxiety, etc. Many of these things aren't bad by themselves (for example, being healthy is great! Having a good job to support your family is wonderful!) But, anything, even good things, can become a stronghold if they take the place of God is our lives. Psalm 18:2 states, "The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold" (emphasis mine). God is the only one that can secure us as our fortress, deliverer, rock, shield, and stronghold. But isn't it so like us humans to get swept up in our thoughts, problems, and lives that we turn these into our focus, our motivations for security, and essentially our strongholds? These thoughts, as 2 Corinthians states, can set themselves up against the knowledge of God. Thoughts like "if I have that job, car, dress, significant other, etc, my life will be so much better and complete" can often turn our motivations upside-down and cause us to focus on "worldly-things" instead of "God-things."

But! Thank the Lord He has equipped us with weapons to demolish these strongholds! We can tear down these "arguments" and "pretensions" in our heads that place worldly things before our relationship with God. When worries and anxieties come, which, let's face it, they inevitably will, we can turn to the Lord and ask Him to equip us with weapons that demolish these thoughts. We can put on the full armor of God. Ephesians 6:13-18 states,

"Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people."

These verses seem pretty dense, but they are basically telling us to take up the armor that God freely gives us through His promises, forgiveness, grace, and WORD. The more we know about God, the more we can use these weapons against our destructive thoughts. And how do we know more about God? By taking the "sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God" and becoming so familiar with who God is, what He promises, and what He has done for us, which is all recorded in His word!

Knowing more truths about God will help us focus on who HE is in times of anxiety and worry. When these times come, we can ask him to take all of our thoughts captive and make them obedient to HIM! God has equipped us with the power of the Holy Spirit (Acts 1:8), and we can use this power. We can ask God for wisdom and believe that He will give it to us (James 1:5). Galatians 5:1 states, "It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery." God set us free to be and live like we are a FREE people, not to still be captive to destructive and anxiety-driven thoughts.

However, we cannot have captive thoughts that are obedient to Christ without the help and power of the Holy Spirit. We must ASK God to help us in our thought-lives. We must acknowledge that the Lord's thoughts and ways are greater than any of our worries, problems, or even aspirations and dreams. Isaiah 55: 8-9 state: "“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts." We have to trust that God has a better plan for us because His ways are higher than we can ever imagine! Trust me, this is SO hard for me. It is difficult to focus on what God is doing at times when things just seem so overwhelming you can't fathom how it will all work out for your good. But the Bible even has something to say about that :) Romans 8:28 states: "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."

I am trying so hard to be more intentional about what I think about. We simply have to believe what the Lord says. Believe that we can demolish strongholds by asking for the weapons that God has promised to us. Believe that we can ask God to take our thoughts captive and make them obedient to Christ. And lastly, believe that God will work all things together for our good! :)

Gluten, Grains, and Paleo, Oh My!

I am writing this post sitting in Starbucks at the moment and am SO tempted to get one (or a few) of their baked goods. But I'm not going to, as hard as it may be, because this morning, I posted on my Instagram (name change! @fitfoodie_tveen) that I wanted to try to eat as grain-free as possible for a while. Truth be told, I LOVE BREAD. Seriously, I used to love going to restaurants with unlimited bread baskets, warm rolls, or fresh baked pita bread. I love dipping bread in soups, sauces, and, of course, oil and vinegar. Growing up, I have always had some...shall we say..."tummy issues," but never figured that they could have been caused by things like breads and grains. I was allergic to milk as an infant and had to rely on soy-milk, until I just simply stopped drinking milk altogether. I loved grains and relied on these foods when feeling sick (toast, crackers, rice, etc). But then again, I followed this type of lifestyle, and still had tummy issues throughout my whole life. And I was always so grateful that I didn't have Celiac's disease or gluten intolerance because, I told myself, I could NEVER follow a lifestyle without bread! Until...last summer, when my tummy issues escalated. I had been following a predominantly vegetarian diet since the winter before, while training for a half-marathon. This meant that my meals consisted of wheat-rich whole grain bagels, pita breads, and waffles. I felt uncomfortable, bloated, and in pain CONSTANTLY. I was miserable all the time and stayed home most nights because I did not want to go out feeling so uncomfortable and in so much pain. I finally went to the doctor at the beginning of the summer in 2012, and she said she was absolutely sure I had Celiac's disease and was going to send me for blood work just to be sure. I was upset but also relieved to have some REASON behind my discomfort. I mean, I am a nutritionist/almost RD! I eat healthy and I did not understand why all these things were happening. To my disappointment (weird, right?) I tested negative for Celiac's disease. However, my doctor still diagnosed me with gluten intolerance and told me to avoid gluten. Once I cut out gluten, something amazing happened. I was no longer bloated or in pain after eating! It was an amazing/weird feeling that I was not used to, since, for 23+ years, I had always experienced this type of discomfort after eating and truly thought it was normal. I followed a strict gluten free diet, and didn't mind the restrictions, for a few months. However, at the beginning of this year (2013), I really started to miss bread. I mean, REALLY started to miss it. Around this time, I also ironically discovered the Paleo diet and read the book "It Starts with Food" by Dallas and Melissa Hartwig. If you haven't heard of the Paleo diet, I suggest researching it. But, in a nutshell, this diet cuts out grains, legumes, dairy, soy, and added sugars and focuses on wholesome foods our ancestors ate. On the Paleo diet, you could have meat, chicken, fish, vegetables, fruits, and healthy fats. I wanted to try this 30-day clean paleo diet challenge (called "Whole 30") because it really seemed to focus on wholesome foods that heal your gut, while helping you get over your "carb cravings" by allowing your body to get used to foods it was meant to live off of. I also read that some people with gluten intolerance were able to return to eating grains "once in a while" because of healing their gut through the Whole 30. I decided to try a "whole 30" and see how my body reacted, in the hopes of possibly being able to eat grains again!

My body LOVED eating paleo. My body LOVED the whole 30. I was sleeping better, my run times were improving, and I lost weight even though I was eating more than I ever had before in my life! However, my brain felt VERY restricted. All I could think about was how much I missed bread, dairy, and my beloved hummus. Once I completed the whole 30, I started to slowly reintroduce my go-to grainy foods that I had missed so much. I started eating my whole grain bagels, tortillas, and pita breads, with the original intention of eating them "once in a while." I started incorporating dairy to my diet again. I starting having my hummus with pita bread. And I was NOT feeling sick! It was an amazing feeling. I continued to still eat a balanced and "healthy" diet of meat and grains, with healthy amounts of fruits, veggies, legumes, and healthy fats. I was so excited that I was not being sick. My gluten intolerance was cured! I couldn't be more ecstatic.

Which brings me to my post this morning on Instagram. The past few weeks, I have been having some tummy trouble again. I realized that I was eating grains ALL the time, not just "once in a while" as I had originally intended. I would have a peanut butter tortilla wrap in the mornings, turkey sandwiches at lunch, and rice and meat for dinner, all in the same day. I was reflecting this morning at 3am (my sleeping has declined again as well!) and I realized how much better my body felt eating gluten and grain-free, even though I felt very restricted. I decided that I would follow my own kind of "grain-free" diet that works for me. Because, in reality, for every study done proving a food or diet is "healthy," there is a study done showing that it may cause cancer, diabetes, and be "unhealthy." For example, you read a study that oats lower cholesterol! And then you find another study that grains (including oats) raise cholesterol. There is a very confusing world of scientific research out there (trust me! I had to do a TON of research these past 6 years completing my undergraduate/graduate degrees in nutrition and dietetics!) Therefore, I decided that I need to follow a lifestyle that works for me and my body. And this lifestyle happens to be a mostly grain and gluten-free one. This isn't to say that I am never ever going to eat grains again, but I am going to do my best to follow this type of lifestyle 80% of the time, while leaving room for real life events (such as my birthday in 4 days!) to eat the foods that are worth it to me to splurge on. This week will serve as a trial run since I have two Disneyland trips planned and my 25th birthday party on Friday! I plan to still make healthy choices along the way, but don't want to stress myself out with the rules. It's a celebratory week! Yay! But anyways, here are my general guidelines:

1.) I will be cutting out all gluten and grains. Exceptions may include special occasions when the gluten/grain options are worth it to me (wonder bread vs. my birthday dessert for my 25th birthday this Friday? Birthday dessert wins, wonder bread can wait...probably forever). I've promised myself that I will give in only when I really really want the food and only if it is worth it to me! And I have promised myself to keep my portions in check. If I want to give in, 1-2 bites should be enough to get my fill of these foods.

Another exception will be when I bake. I love to bake! I love creating healthy version of foods that I love. I always bake gluten free, but the mix I use has rice flour in it, which is a grain. I am going to make an exception for this because, again, I LOVE TO BAKE! I think that life is too short to cut out things that we enjoy to do. Baking is a hobby of mine, and I will continue to bake in a gluten-free and healthy way that works for me! :)

2.) I will be eating dairy (cheeses only, I always avoid milk!) and legumes and will be following an "in-between gluten-free and paleo" type of plan with these food groups. I will incorporate foods such as peanuts, hummus, and low-fat string cheese, and not be too strict on myself. Low fat dairy products (such as cheeses) and legumes (hummus, beans, etc) have never effected my body negatively, so I do not want to cut these out and be overly restrictive! Remember, the more you restrict certain foods, the more your body, or brain rather, will want these foods!

3.) I will not obsessively worry about the type of oils foods are cooked in. This is something that majorly stressed me out while I was doing the Whole 30. I tend to be a stickler for rules and would obsessively call restaurants and research menus to make sure foods were "whole 30 approved," but I realized this type of worry about my food was not healthy, nor was it glorifying to God. God gives us food to make us healthy, strong, and for us to enjoy. Food shouldn't cause unhealthy stresses on our lives! I've realized that the time I spent worrying if foods were whole 30 approved at restaurants or not could have been spent doing other more God-glorifying things. Therefore, I will just pick foods that are protein and vegetable based from restaurants, that are gluten-free, and not be annoying to the restaurant staff :)

4.) I will pay attention to my running, sleeping, tummy issues, and overall mood. I will see how eating real, healthy, wholesome foods effects all aspects of my life!

I am excited to start/continue this journey and return to this type of eating. I am hoping my story inspires some of you who suffer from these issues as well to figure out what foods bother your body. If anyone wants to follow along in my journey, I will be posted pictures on Instagram (again @fitfoodie_tveen).

Have a wonderful, healthy, and happy day everyone!

Think About Such Things

"Finally brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable; if anything is excellent or praiseworthy, think about such things." Philippians 4:8 (NIV) I have a confession to make. I struggle in my thought life. A LOT! I find it very easy to get down on myself, get stressed out, focus on all I have to do and all I am not doing, and just bask in all my worries. My mom shared this verse with me recently and, even though I am very familiar with it in the "memorize-in-Christian-elementary-school" type way, I had never truly reflected on it until now.

Most of the time, I want a practical, clear cut way to apply the verses of the Bible to my life. When someone says "trust the Lord with it!" and dismisses my thoughts, as if all my worries will disappear, I often want to know a practical, step-by-step approach to trusting the Lord, as well as what it actually looks like strategically to trust God. How is that lived out on a day-to-day basis? How does that look to those around me? These verses in Philippians seemed to finally answer these questions for me this morning.

Whatever is true, noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable, excellent, praiseworthy...THINK ABOUT SUCH THINGS! It's pretty clean cut, simple, and practical if you ask me. We have a lot more say about where our minds travel than we think we do. After all, why would Paul (through the power of the Holy Spirit) instruct, even command us to think about such things? That implies that we have some say in the matter, doesn't it?

I want to claim this God-given strength that I have over my thought life! I want God to take all of my thoughts captive and make them obedient to Him (2 Corinthians 10:5). But how does this actually work? Practically? :)

I believe that we flat out have to ask God to give us the strength to glorify Him with our thoughts. We can't do this alone. Our human mind is one scary place...or at least mine is! I know I can't focus on what is true, noble, pure, right, etc without His power working in me. In those moments when life gets tough and we are so quick to be negative and get down on ourselves, a quick prayer of "Lord, I need You. Take control of my thoughts and help me focus on what is pure and right and praiseworthy!" could make a huge difference in the direction our hour, day, week, or even life goes.

I also believe that prayer is not a magic formula where you plug in all the right words and BOOM God comes through. If it worked like that, we would only rely on our abilities. I believe prayer is a state of mind where, all day every day, you are in tune with the Holy Spirit, realizing that God is God and you are not, and turning over all the day's activities, thoughts, and worries to the Lord. Acknowledging that only God can help us "think about such things" will help us rely on Him instead of our usual human reaction which is typically "just suck it up," "get over it," or "distract yourself." We need to get comfortable with being a little uncomfortable in the moment, take that discomfort to God, and let him turn our harmful, worrisome, and destructive thoughts into beautiful thoughts and words that He will use for His glory.

"...for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill His good purpose." Philippians 2:13

Big Breakfast Club: Daily Manna 8/26

Today was such an up and down day with work, energy, and my overall mood. All I wanted to do ALL day was just go back to my bed. It was humid and rainy today, so that will be my excuse. Even if it isn't cold outside, the fact that it is rainy automatically makes me want to cuddle up in bed with a good book. Which is precisely what I plan on doing after writing this post! I woke up this morning, did my quiet time (I started a new Bible study on John and it is incredible so far!) and got ready for my workout. I ate my flat out bread (100 calories and high protein!) with a smear of peanut butter.

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And yes, I pinterest at 4am. Don't judge :)

I had a great workout this morning! I ran 6 miles and it was really easy at the beginning and the end, with just a little difficulty sprinkled in the middle. I like to change the incline on my runs since I run on the treadmill (the air quality is AWFUL where I live at the moment), so I think my body is resisting that a bit! But that's okay, I'll just have to keep pushing! After my run, I did some strength training, working on my chest and triceps! Plus a plank :)

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I really want to get better at my planks. I used to be able to do 2-3 minute ones last year! Oh grad school...how it ruins you. Maybe I will make my own Plank Challenge plan to help me out a bit...hmmmm...

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I made breakfast at home before heading out for my hour-long drive to work. I had some fresh watermelon my mom had given me over the weekend which tasted like candy! YUM! As I have mentioned before, I've been struggling with getting hunger pangs midmorning. My shift at my internship is 7am-3:30pm, which means breakfast is eaten extremely early. I decided that, today, I would have a large breakfast. And this one was LARGE for me! I scrambled 2 whole eggs, 3/4 cup egg whites and a yellow bell pepper and placed it all on a tortilla with some salsa on top. My hope was that the fat from the two whole eggs plus the protein from all the eggs in general would help me stay full till 11/11:30. And my plan worked! My breakfast kept me so full that I was able to happily wait to take my lunch at 11:45am instead of having a grumbling stomach at 9:30am! I am happy to report that I am now a part of the Big Breakfast Club, and will not fear getting so many calories in that early in the morning!

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For lunch, I made my usual salad, got my chicken breast, and meandered around the cafeteria for a little bit. At the sandwich bar, they had a side salad of broccoli, cauliflower, tomatoes, bell peppers, and red onions tossed in a light Italian dressing. Bingo! I knew this side salad atop my regular salad would taste so good! It was the perfect variation to my typical lunch and helped me not get caught in my salad rut :)

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Around 3:30pm, I had my 100 calorie pack of cinnamon roast almonds and a plum. This plum was so juicy and red inside. Plums are definitely one of my favorite fruits so I thoroughly enjoyed my snack!

By the time I ran my errands after work (gas, picking up quest bars, etc), I was ready for dinner. I stopped by the grocery store and got a garlic rotisserie chicken. Once I got home, I picked out the white breast meat, saved the rest for tomorrow, and created my quick and simple basic food groups meal:

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This meal filled me up, tasted great, and got the job done. And I have more of it left for tomorrow's dinner! Win-win :) As I've mentioned before, I am moving back home at the end of this week and trying to eat as simple as possible so I won't have any access food :) I can't wait to get back home to my own kitchen and cook all of my favorite meals!!!

Before ending this post, I want to share a quote I had posted on my Instagram a while back (@thejoyfulharvest if you want to follow!) I have been reflecting on it all day today...

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I don't know about you, but I tend to focus on my past and the mistakes/victories I have had. I dwell on the former things whether they are the positive or negative aspects of my life. I try to think about what made me do the things I did in the past. However, today, I was reminded of this verse while reading the Socrates quote:

Isaiah 43: 18-19

“Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland."

I love the excitement of this verse! "See, I am doing a new thing!..do you not perceive it?" It's almost like God is standing with us, holding us tight, pointing off to something in the distance, and saying with excitement "there it is, right there! Don't you see it?!" God has a plan for us, and He is excited about it! What is the point of dwelling on the former things, when God's plans are alive and active and always moving us forward? I hope that these verses help us focus on the "new" thing instead of the old. Let us put our hopes and energies into what is coming instead of getting caught in what has already passed.

 

Have a lovely night everyone!

Fear, Courage, and Love

These three words have been bouncing around in my head for the past few weeks. I have realized how much I live in fear and anxiety, crave courage, and desire to feel God's love at all times. These three words have also been the main themes of three songs I have been listening to over and over again these past few weeks...let me back up a little bit and explain. I love to work out to music, particularly worship music. It relaxes me and helps me start my day off focusing on the Lord and giving all the glory to Him. Music has always been a big part of my life. I am a very emotional person; however, when it comes to expressing my emotions and putting them into words, I have a really hard time. But when I listen to a song, sometimes the lyrics resonate with me to a point where I exclaim "That's it!!! That's how I feel!" When this happens, I usually listen to the song over and over again as a sort of release to help me sort through my thoughts and feelings. This happened the past few weeks with three songs in particular:

"Believer" by Audio Adrenaline

"Courageous" by Casting Crowns

"Your Love is Like a River" by Third Day

These songs have made a huge impact in my thought processes the past few weeks. "Believer" is a song that starts out by saying "I want to live my life unsafe, unsure, but not afraid." Whoa...really? The minute I heard those words I got to thinking...do I want to live my life that way? And if I do want to live unsafe and unsure, isn't "not afraid" kind of an oxymoron to those first two conditions? But then, the chorus came. And everything made sense:

"Cause I’m already out here, blind but I can see I see the way You’re moving God how I believe that

I can push back the mountains, can stand on the waves I can see through the darkness, I’ll hold up the flame Take me to the ocean I want to go deeper I’m not afraid no, I’m a believer"

I realized that yes, I can live my life unsafe, unsure, and NOT afraid because God is moving and I should believe that I can do all those things above such as "push back mountains" and "see through the darkness" because I am a BELIEVER in God and what He can accomplish through me. Why fear??

The second song "Courageous" got me by its first words as well, which state, "we were made to be courageous." Pretty simple, right? We weren't made to live in fear; we were made to be courageous! However, I really believe that courage is something that is fought in the mind. It's really a mind over matter type thing, which means that we have to guard our minds and remember that we were made to be courageous and unafraid. The song continues to say: "in the war of the mind I will make my stand, in the battle of the heart and the battle of the hand." This phrase definitely struck a chord with me, because there are many times when we have to make our stand and make a decision in our minds that we are going to be courageous, believe what God says about us and who He created us to be, and not be afraid. Why did God make us to be courageous? To not live in fear? It all comes down to love, which brings me to the next song.

"Your Love is Like a River" is a beautiful depiction of how God's love is alive and flows within us and to others. The lyrics express many different states that we as humans find ourselves in:

"When I am tired and so afraid Your love is like a fire that will light my way When darkness comes and my vision fades Your love is like a fire that will light my way And it's always burning and stirring my soul To know You and love You much more It never stops or ever fades Your love is like a fire that will light my way"

God's love is always there and within us whether we are scared, can't see where we are headed, or when "all our strength and hope is gone." God's love is always there and is the "rock that we are standing on!" See why I love this song so much?? :) No matter what situation we find ourselves in, God's love is never going to fail us or fade away. It will ALWAYS light our way.

So, in essence, we don't need to be afraid. We can live unsure, unsafe, and NOT in fear, because we were made to be courageous. We can take a stand in this war that we are constantly fighting, because we are filled with, and are standing on God's love. It never fails us, never fades, never stops.

Do More of What Makes You Happy

I have always had a weakness for journals. Ever since I was a little girl, I would always want a new, pretty journal with smooth pages to write my thoughts, plans, and dreams in. To this day, I can't let a good journal just pass me up! Last week, I found this journal while perusing at Barnes and Nobles and just had to buy it... photo

 

The previous Sunday, our topic during our Sunday School class was how we find joy in our lives, whether it is from time with family, friends, work, or even how we enjoy and find joy in our relationship with God. I loved talking about this with the rest of our Sunday School class, and that conversation got me thinking about joy and happiness when I purchased this journal. To me, happiness is something that is momentary and can easily be taken away from you as well as given to you depending on the people, circumstances, or events going on in your life. But joy is a much more difficult concept to grapple with for me. Joy is something that can only come from the Lord, regardless of people, events, or even myself. I know that my only source of joy is from the Lord, which makes it different than just mere happiness. I'm not saying happiness is a bad thing; not at all! I love being happy and being surrounded by people and things that make me happy. However, these things come and go. But joy is something that can be and should be felt every day, no matter what the circumstances, if we stay tuned in to what God has for us.

Psalm 118:24 says "This is the day that the Lord has made, we WILL rejoice and be glad in it." I love this verse because it doesn't say "I feel like rejoicing" or "I'll think about rejoicing." This verse implies that, no matter what your day brings, it is the Lord's day and we will rejoice; it will be a conscious effort, and we will decide to find our joy in the Lord. I have to confess, I am a very emotionally-driven person and cannot be fake for the life of me. I have a hard time choosing joy over so many of the other emotions that compete for my attention. However, I have to remember that being joyful in all circumstances does not mean pasting a smile on your face and ignoring the troubles life can and will bring! It means knowing Who's hands your life is in. When I remember that God is the one who holds me in His hands and He is the one taking care of me, this fills me with sincere and genuine joy because I realize...what more could I possibly want!

With that being said, this journal I bought still made me brainstorm about things that make me happy. Sometimes, I feel like we as people have a fear of being happy. We are afraid that if everything is going well, something is bound to go wrong. However, I came to the recent conclusion that bad things are going to happen whether we are happy and things are going well, or whether life is miserable to begin with. I decided that I'd much rather ENJOY life and take part in the things that make me happy rather than mope and decide that I might as well not be happy since bad things will happen anyway. Boy, am I glad I came to this decision! I made a short list in my new pretty journal about the different things that bring me happiness, and I am going to strive to at least do some of these things every day. I know life is busy, tiresome, and filled with a million to do lists already. However, I also know that God gave us life and wants us to enjoy it to the full. He wants us to glorify Him with our gifts and talents and not hide under a rock and refuse to show the world how great our God is. Here is my happiness list, and I hope this encourages you to make one as well and strive to at least do a few things on that list every day! :)

 

What makes me happy?

1.) Jesus. Spending time with the Lord and sharing what I've learned about Him with other people.

2.) Spending time with the people in my life (family, boyfriend, friends, etc).

3.) Running and worshiping the Lord during this time.

4.) Cooking!

5.) Fellowship, being in Sunday school and church

6.) Taking care of my body/eating healthy and nutritious foods

7.) Art, painting, and singing

8.) Reading on the beach!

9) Swimming

10.) Blogging, writing, and sharing!

"Worlds Apart"

You know those moments, when you hear a song you’ve heard a dozen times, and all of a sudden it brings you to tears? And you just don’t know why it decided to hit you at THAT moment? THAT point in time? THAT second? Well, I had that moment this morning, and lucky for me, it was on the treadmill at the gym (which, let me tell you, is quite an embarrassing time and place to have THAT moment). But nonetheless, I was brought to tears this morning while on the treadmill at 6:06am. “Worlds Apart” by Jars of Clay was one of the first songs that came on my playlist during my run.  Granted, I’ve heard this song many times and absolutely love it, but today was different. I didn’t let the lyrics just wash over me. God tuned my heart in to every word. When the bridge came, I was moved to tears to a point where I was crying on the treadmill. God is so good. In case you haven’t heard the bridge, these are the lyrics:

I look beyond the empty cross forgetting what my life has cost and wipe away the crimson stains and dull the nails that still remain More and more I need you now, I owe you more each passing hour the battle between grace and pride I gave up not so long ago So steal my heart and take the pain and wash the feet and cleanse my pride take the selfish, take the weak, and all the things I cannot hide take the beauty, take my tears the sin-soaked heart and make it yours take my world all apart take it now, take it now and serve the ones that I despise speak the words I can't deny watch the world I used to love fall to dust and thrown away take my world apart, take my world apart I pray, I pray, I pray take my world apart

I know, right? I don’t know about you, but these lyrics spoke an amazing word over me this morning. I felt God’s presence to an overwhelming and awesome degree. Many parts of this song stood out to me, so I thought I’d take a moment and share them with you.

“The battle between grace and pride, I gave up not so long ago.”

I believe this is a very difficult battle for many of us to give up. Pride is part of human nature, which leads us to, at times, slightly grow complacent in trying to “get rid” of it. I want to stop fighting for my pride and fight for humility. I pray for God to remove my pride daily, but how many times do we pray for things and actually want God to do them. With our entire hearts? Oh pride…

“Take the selfish, take the weak, and all the things I cannot hide. Take my beauty, take my tears, the sin-soaked heart and make it yours.”

I want this to be my sincere and pure prayer. I want God to take the selfish out of me. Even things that I want to hide. You can’t hide anything from God, which He continues to teach me every day. But do I really WANT God to take my hidden “things” in a way that I cannot hide them anymore? Pretty scary if you ask me. Hidden things are ours to do with what we want, right? Not so much. In Psalms 19, David prays for God to forgive his “hidden faults.” I pray for sincerity like this, a heart like this, that is NOT scared to reveal the hidden things, because God already knows! In Psalm 139, David asks God to “search” him and “know his anxious thoughts.” God knows it all, yet still wants us to willingly surrender and invite Him to take our world apart.

And just the entire concept of taking my world apart. Wow. Everything I know or hold on to or love or exalt, I want God to take those things apart if it means growing closer to Him, knowing Him more, feeling His presence more, glorifying Him more, and serving Him more. More of Him, less of me. Always.

Needless to say, I felt His presence this morning. And I enjoyed it. Even on the treadmill with people all around me J